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My name is Lisa. When Paul and I were married, I was 27 and he was 32. I was ready to start a family right away because I felt like we were already running behind most people and I had always wanted children so badly. When a year passed by and I had not become pregnant, we went to the Doctor. I had all the test ran, and they could not find anything wrong, and then Paul had test ran and the Doctor found a problem. We were told two years into our marriage that we would never have children. We were devastated but decided to leave it up to the Lord. On December 25, 1988, Christmas morning I did a pregnancy test and found out that I was pregnant. We were so excited, and what a wonderful day to find out on! Eight months and 1 week later on August 8, 1989 I had an emergency C-section and Clint was born. The next day the Doctor told me we came very close to losing him. So not only did I have the miracle of getting pregnant, but God also saved our little boy from an unexpected complication with the pregnancy. We couldn’t believe it, we had our little miracle and life would be great!
Two and a half years later when I found out I was pregnant again, we were so surprised. Not only was God going to show us that he could give us one child, he was going to give us a bonus. And a bonus it was! On November 2, 1992 Clay was born into our family. How does a mother describe her boys… handsome, smart, talented, personable, my boys fit all these descriptions. Always singing, always laughing. Most importantly they both loved the Lord. Going to church together was something we did and enjoyed as a family. Two of the happiest days of my life were when each one asked the Lord into their heart and accepted Him as their Lord and Savior. Our lives were not perfect, we had problems just like everyone else, but more than anything we had a love for each other and the Lord blessed us in so many ways. Life was life and was going by so fast, I could not believe Clint was a teenager at 13, and Clay was 10. But, you wake up one morning and your world changes. December 10, 2002 my twin sister, Clint, Clay, and I were on our way to school (where my sister and I work and the boys attend). Before we could even get out of the city limits a lady who had worked the night shift at a local business fell asleep and came across the center line right in front of us and hit us head on. The impact of the accident broke 14 bones in my body, my sister’s ankle and several bones in both of her hands. Clint had minor internal injuries and was hospitalized for two days, and as Paul told me in the emergency room “Clay went to Heaven”. The impact of the accident was more than his body could handle, the seatbelt crushed his organs and he possibly broke his neck.
It has now been almost a year, and I still wake up some mornings and think it couldn’t be true, it has to be a nightmare. However, it is true, and it doesn’t go away. The Lord is good, after the accident our families, our school family and our church family all helped us in so many ways. They continue to support us and remember us and Clay. We cannot believe the people we have heard from that have told us they are praying for us. We really think that the prayers that have been spoken on our behalf have helped us get through this year, along with the people who have helped us by carrying part of our grief and making our load lighter. Losing a child is the hardest thing I have ever been through. I have had eight eye surgeries and I am visually disabled, but that has been nothing compared to the pain of losing Clay. It is our belief that the Lord doesn’t make mistakes and our hope for a future in Heaven that gives us hope and the ability to go on. With God’s grace, friend’s prayers and the memories of Clay we will go on. |
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